Assalamualaikum
here i am back to writing. to be honest this is a very long overdue post as i have been thinking to write sejak lama lagi. tiba-tiba dah almost penghujung 2022. it's not like im not writing at all. to be honest this will be my fourth post in 2022 as i have been writing draft all along the year. i guess it has reach to the point im no longer wanna make my feelings public? idk.
but yeah. just to summarised what had happened until August 2022:
- i graduated law school
- i got my second covid experience
- i spent a whole semester physically at uni and went through another level of roller coaster emotions throughout the journey and for the first time, i cried due to study matters lol
- i make new friends (REALLY NEW)
- i fall in love again
yeah true, i fall in love again alhamdulillah bukan batu ya hati ini. but lets go over it at the end of this post.
firstly, i actually graduated law school people. although not with first class level but alhamdulillah i went through the five years of law school after postponed it for a year. Fourth year was hell. the workloads the commitments all are just worldly hell for me. when i first knew i need to return to the school physically for lesson i was devastated. that because i was too comfortable juggling things up at my own comfort position at home. also, im sick of meeting school people so i prefer looking at them through screen rather than physically. but rules are rules and not to be broken. i concurred.
the first strategy of returning is having a good circle of roommates. so i chose them. but Allah had better planning and strategy where Allah make me doubt myself within the journey but bigger lessons was ahead. Alhamdulillah. then good groupmates, yes checked. I was surprised to see myself scored quite high carry marks in my fourth year subjects. So i know what went wrong- my final examinations. But hahahah still, alhamdulillah. The assignments, lecturers, groupmates and all, are just very challenging. I learn to tie and untie old relationships which make my circle smaller of course but more cherishing.
my very very very small but very closest friendship circle consist of 3 of us- me and them. I never know how vulnerable i can be with them until now. Thank you so much for all the memories. cant wait for our trip soon!
Next, yep got my second covid, right after i finish law school. I did write about my first experience which really hurts but i didnt post it here. something about me back then must dont want to post it. This time, i being taken cared of. which is alhamdulillah and it only last for 4 days. yang paling sedih my special people also got it from me. i cried when i heard they cough or laying down with hoarse voice. especially my tokmak. today, she talked about herself to me happily about her past but her eyes was crying. I couldnt resist but cried with her. such a moment that i want to treasure forever and ever. thank you tokmak for being that kind of person that can accept me for who i am, who always look beyond what i depict, for knowing what i likes and dislike that no one else know better, for arguing with me although many people accept it in wrong way most of times when i just want to have a deep talk, and for understand the complexity in my mind better than anyone else. Thank you for being my best friend. i love you. so so so so so much.
Next, falling in love again is a personal experience and you should know i dont share it here hehe!
then, thats all for august 2022, let's wish for better days in the future. thank you myself for going on. It's hard to have that complex mind but Allah loves you for who you are too.
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