this entry will be a very impromptu self thought that i had on thursday. 

this semester was really challenging for me as im writing this entry at 1.41 am after a long day. but still i want to share something that precious that i found. It was supposed to be normal sunday but because of a groupwork problem i slept at 3.30am and woke up at 7.10am for the ethics class. i was super mad when i slept and the same feelings when i woke up. Went to the class like usual and submit the last minute masterpiece that we did last night. During the class we only have presentations and sir will say out his opinion within the presentation if he feels like doing so. Some people might feel that discussion was unnecessary but tbh, that discussion is the only thing i listen in the class. my lecturer is from Philippines. He is a muallaf since when idk but maybe because of the way he speak and act, most of the students dont like him. However i would say that he is the only lecturer (apart from law subjects) that are serious in what he do. he know what he speaks. he know the world. he realised the problem that we (malay) have in our society although he is a foreigner. The way he give away his opinion in the class about certain issues, shows the real way of a university student should behave like. even his assignment is easy if only the students realised that they are in university and the standard of university student is different. Merely having various study apps in handphone, laptop or bringing multiple of books to class everyday doesnt show that you  are a university student. your work are. I was kind of disappointed in some of my group mates because we once had a healthy discussion prior to all assignments. But only Allah knows that it will be like this. 

in the evening i have a legal method class. another so-called scary lecturer that was claim by everyone. but my lecturer is a person who read alot. let's be honest, i may be law student but reading books is still not my thing. In the first two early classes, she told us how important it is to have ethics especially when you becoming a lawyer one day. she always emphasize on being honest in anything that we do because you will get what you give. During that particular class, after the lesson, she shared about her favorite book. (which is something related to law ofc) and i was quite amazed by how beautiful she talks about books. She said that in today's world, good books are hard to find. even when she went to a book fair she was disappointed in the books that was sold at the first floor. she said she only can find good books at the top floor. what makes her sad even more, she was not looking for books for her to read, but for her children. so it was sad for her to not be able to find good books for her children to read. she also stated her dissatisfaction towards today parent who give their children gadget to make them quiet. This is something i still think open for debate because i have a sister who have a child. her husband is a night shiftier.  so sometimes when she need to take nap for awhile and theres no one can take care of the child, she have no choice but to let the child play with gadget. This world is so mystery.

but from these lecturers i would say i was happy that i was in their classes? because not everyone managed to get this input from them and even though you are there to listen, some people might just misinterpret it. i was glad i was given the chance to listen to the healthy discussion that make me open my mind to the issues that are beyond my reach. i feel like this is something a university student should be proud of. you wont a medal or certificate for understanding this, but you get more in your life. becoming a uni student is interesting but why people keep using it in the wrong way i.e hanging out more than the limit, spending your time on useless thing, or even only spending ur time on studying. if you are a university student or soon will be, be the change. becoming a university you should upgrade your standard and try open yourself to something beyond your limit, get out from your comfort zone and just be someone.