rejection
▶ 13 October, 2018 11:48 AM 0 comment
assalamualaikum
yes. like it's title itself this entry is all about rejection.
i used to be someone who doesnt really understand what does rejection means. i've encounter few rejections before but not directly. however lately i have encounter more direct rejections with everything around me. got rejected by 3 societies, 2 scholarships, not really a fantastic way to start my degree life. The first two rejection was okay but it really hit me because we came as a team but only one person got the opportunity. why? it's really hard to know because it was not a two way communications. they just reject you without actually trying to fixed you. To be honest i've been wanting to tell this to someone but i just dont know who. i feel like i was in deep hole where the time is stop for me. Still trying to bring myself up, still trying to stop the whisper of satan, still trying to explore the doors that are actually open for me.
brainwashing myself, i said that maybe Allah have not yet opened it for me or im just opening the wrong door. or maybe the door is not ready yet.
what i hate about rejection are, you starting to put blames on others and you started to feel down all way long. i want to find a place for myself too. help. pray for me. insyallah.
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