Being an exchange student is not about having a good time 100% in a foreign country. There some time where you need to get up by your own when someone push you hard. Theres no one can help you other than yourself.
After more than 2 weeks being here i realise i was spoiled too much. I didnt appreciate the things that i had before when i was in my country. I was blind by the pleasure that was actually given by my parents, family and friends. To be honest i was not myself for the past week since i am here. I feel like someone else and im not okay with it. I feel like i was caged and i cant think better when im doing something. That is just not me. Negativity are poison where the devil like to put into your mind. MasyAllah. Astagfirullahalazim.
Being in a country where their native language is not the same as yours is just hard especially if you are a kepohci. (Someone should actually award the person that made signal language and body language because its the real universal language everyone!! You been lied! It's not english!!!). If you been talking a lot in your country and after that you did an exchange at a foreign country that doesnt speak english or malay; welcome to the world of challenges. Don't give up i would say. Try to speak. Try the (actual) universal language which is body language.
Did i miss my family back at malaysia? I would say a lot. Words cant describe how much i miss them. Miss the comfortable being at home with them. Miss the moment where i can sleep as much as i can. Miss the nagging that my mom always do at least once a day. Friends? Dont say much. Everytime i saw a bunch of kids hanging out all i can think is my friends. But i cant tell them that because i will miss them even more. And i cant keep depressing myself because my kind lovely host family will worry about me and might not feel comfortable me being like that. I need to keep stronger. I need to move forward and recall the main point i am here.
Life is about making the next step. Dont be shy and do what scares you! Fatini you can do it!! Spread positivity! Be the muslim girl that can speak up more than anything. Dont let anything be in your way to learn about yourself. Life might be hard but losing chances to become a better person is just sucks! Try harder. Study harder. I hope everyone that read this post will pray for the best for me and other exchange student that have the same experience as me
Ps: what kind of conversation we should start with boys? Any idea?
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