assalamualaikum
this entry gonna be the most special entry of the year (2013)
(btw, i love how the picture describe this cant-let-it-go feelings ahha)
i feeling like wanna talk about my friends this year. and this year i have known alot of different people. different taste different likes different looks different skins but the same heart. i took my second most important exam this year and i have realized alot of things about friends. i have realized that i am a fucking stupid girl for not appreciates each of my friends before when they have did so many things for me. i used to be someone who cling into one person and i hate it when someone get in my way to be with her. what im saying is, when you have a bestfriend, then someone come into your relationship and want to be bff too with you both but you think she's a burden in your friendship while she have treasure you both so much. im so so so very very super duper sorry for anyone that i have done this before. i realized this feeling only when after i had deeply think about it.   i cant believe i did something like this again to someone :(

friends are unique don't you think so? you both or more suddenly talk the same things, like the same things, be together for some times then all day you can only think of them. some quote suddenly came in my mind, this quote is from Kimi ni Todoke ;

 "without we realized it, we have become friends"

this quote have stuck in my heads after i watched KnT. and if you want to see more friendship quote just read the kimi ni todoke. have you ever wondered how your life gonna be without friends? you may have family but friends is like a key to some happiness that no one have. they comfort you when you are sad. they be by your side when you need them. they laughed with you they smile with you they always support you where you go. but, friends is something people usually misunderstand. some friends are bad friends but you have to always think positive that there must be something deep in her are kind too. they cried too. they need someone too. we just have to help them. slowly pick them up the make them realized how bright is the world when you are nice and honest. 

this year, this 2013, i just got so many good friends, thank Allah for the blessing and kindness. my friends from school are some people that hard for me to let go. even though it's been 3 years with them i feel like i have been with them for 10 years. who knows? someone bad like me someone with awful personalities will have friends like them. they help me get up this year. they help me buying food during recess they are everything for me. (remember to always always appreciates the one that buy you food)  when we talked about our behavior in class , we still laughing about it. we all be like "yeah that fucking gross but you nailed it" "yeah i miss that teacher alot he was like bla bla bla" "you are so funny" and we still laugh and laugh and laugh. im very happy that i have created some memory with them. yeah of course we sometimes fight too. but we overcome the hate with love!!

i just cant wait to finish these high school things and becomes adult so we can meet each other often. be the one we want to be. be rich of course lah. for 2 years i hope our friendship still stronger than any friendships. mesti lah kita nak bersama dengan orang yang kita sayang gila gila setiap saat kan? tapi ini lah kehidupan. i can't believe im saying these kind of phrase. the internet friends that i got at twitter and tumblr are some people that i hope i never ever stop conversation with. you guys are just like pillow, i can't sleep without you!

this post is longer that i expect i hope you guys could read every single emotion that i put in this post. you guys are just perfect to me. if Allah wills, we gonna meet again! in shaa Allah. i very very super duper fucking freaking love you. bye.