yo. its been 2 weeks since i started my school holidays. i still have more than 1 month left though. what should i do for this holiday? i always think about getting a boyfriend or maybe love when holidays started but the result is always opposite. i end up fatter and uglier every holiday. no money no love or anything to make. so i make up my mind to lose some weight this holiday. (i really is fat for my age you know!) and this year i spent a lot of my times alone at home. it so sad that i dont have any close friends around my neighborhood. i got track mild at home so i guess that make the work easier. but something is my way right now. why my mother is soooooo good at cooking?! none of her daughter is good though. she fried the carrot with the chicken and she said it's healthy! eat more it's good! and i was like where is the good when the carrot is cover with alot and alot of oil. but i end up eating it and it's fucking delicious! the internet also in my way. i always see a good manga a day and i cant let it go! :<<<< im very angry of my self for being a fat girl that obsessed with manga! i need to lose my weight! get my body in fit well at least boy will look or talk to me next year as im turning to 16! im so fucking boring of my life siting on the chair every holidays. getting fatter and else. i want to do outdoors activities and wear the clothes that i want (im a fashionista btw) but i dont have that courage to show my body shape to them. sucks to be me. i can even fall in love with a guy easily and my mind will go insane because of some fantasy :( i really hope i can get over this issue quickly because i really dont wanna be a fatter ugly friend next year. let me feel some sunlight babe

ps: what do you do on holidays/weekends?