hi hello. first of all aku mintak maaf sebab dah lama sangat tak update. actually idea nak update tu memang ada tapi hm tidak kesampaian sebab bila buka tab lain lupa pulak dekat blogger. well thats just a welcome quote. so ... hm.. actually i dont really want to share this thing but i dont have anyone to talk to so i guess this will be great idea since no one read my blog actually. ((if there someone , thankyou))

baru baru ni perasaan aku selalu sangat bercampur. Rasa sedih , marah , cemburu semua bercampur dauk . Obviously this is bad. you know... recently aku tengok kawan lama aku semua 100% dah berubah. well aku tak sure lah kat dalam tapi memang aku dapat rasa diorang berubah and diorang dah tak pandang budak macam aku ni. bukan nak cakap aku ni agas ke sawit ke whatsoever but the "unwanted" feelings always came from them. and that all kind of things really fucked me up.

 "Just because your family is a little richer and your studies are better, doesn't mean that you can do whatever you want"

why. and why. ok maybe i sounds a little desperate oh maybe not a little a lot. See , im not craving for your attention it just feel like you guys dont see me. it feel like i am an invisible woman who used to make you guys happy you guys felt special you guys felt not a loner.

I know that you guys grow up to be a pretty hot girl but please. Sometimes i cant believe i used to be friends with you guys before! Feel free to think!! ((tu pun kalau baca)) lol

maybe bende ni nampak bodoh atau ape aku cakap ni bodoh tapi bende nilah yang buat nilah yang asik ade kat dalam kepala aku. Aku tak boleh nak simpan bende ni dalam kepala aku sampai pmr aku kena luahkan bende ni jugak. kalau aku cerita kat orang diorang fikir aku tak serius tapi bende nilah yang buat aku tak boleh nak tidur rasa terpinggir rasa tak sayang . if you guys want to know , i love my friends from the primary school so much. i just wish you guys also feel the same. insyAllah.